Surgery tomorrow. I have to be at Exeter Hospital at 8:45 and surgery is scheduled for 10:30.
I am a nervous wreck. I have "what if" syndrome today....."What if they open me up and find cancer in my uterus or ovaries or whatever?"...."What if they can't do the laperscopic procedure and have to cut me open like a fish?"
"What if this is not the last cancer related experience of my life?"
Klonopin helped to ease some of the anxiety but has replaced that symptom with another one -- depression. I"m in a serious funk right now. Need to be strong...keep the faith....hope for the best....breathe...
I'll check in again soon.
Doris
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