Sympathy pains.

My friend and co-worker Dawn is back at work. I stopped in to see her this morning. I will respect her privacy and not go into details, however the bruises on her arms from the many needles she has been stuck with are a painful and constant reminder of the battle she is facing.

I know these pains. I want to help. I'll just keep praying for her.

I am taking probably one of the biggest personal steps of my life. Some may find it to be no big deal, while others respond with great support and enthusiasm -- I am going camping by myself this weekend. I made the reservation for one night and I hope to be able to simply get away, breathe, relax...and do something on my own without depending on anyone else to get me there, get me set up, or get me to relax. This weekend is truly going to be - all about me!

Jake and I had an incredible 3 day holiday weekend. We were so busy that we both would be in bed asleep early each night. We had family quality time and fresh air and exercise and it was perfect. He is such an incredible little person!

My second visit with the Hypnotherapist did not seem to go as well. Don't get me wrong, I've not changed my mind about her, or about this type of "treatment." I just think it was more of an eye opener and I know I have a lot of work to do to improve my physical and mental well being. I did enjoy about 2 weeks without any binge eating and I do see myself making small steps to improve upon bad habits. The incredible momentum I experienced after the first session seemed to fizzle after the second session. I am trying to reach deep within my self to work through things, but this will take time. I did not get this way overnight - I will not come out of it overnight. I do know (finally) that I am a worthy person - and I am worth the effort.

I realize sometimes my entries are a bit cryptic, but I think that is my way of protecting myself from opening up too much.

I can say that I've had Jake for an extended stay while his dad and step mom are on vacation. I'm going to feel lost without him again. It is so nice having him around.

I think that's about it for now. Work is very stressful during this time of year but I'm trying to keep it in perspective.

I'll write soon.
Doris