Update

As of this morning I have lost 11.6lbs.
The weight loss is going slower then I would prefer, but I need to work a bit harder with the Weight Watchers program and I need to get my body moving. Still haven't started any walking or exercise routine.

I'm bummed out. This is pretty personal, but I figure that if you're reading this you already know quite a bit of what I've been through. Well, tonight when I changed into my jammies...I looked down at my cleavage. The real one 'sits' differently then the silicone one. The silicone one also looks larger. Dr. Marble says it is still swollen and will be for awhile. I hope that is the case and soon they will....well...match.

I've come so far. I've been through so much. I can handle this. It does not make me less of a mom, friend, employee, co-worker...aunt....anything. I'm still me.

There is a major undertaking on t.v. tonight. The "Stand Up to Cancer" program. Ya know what? I can't watch it. I watched about 5 minutes of it and they were profiling a young girl who is fighting the fight. I can't with good conscience watch any story where someone is personally suffering. And this little girl...and her parents....they are fighting, but they are suffering. Had to change the channel. Don't know if this is denial or what. I can sit here right now at this very moment even after typing about my cleavage and say to myself "Did I REALLY get diagnosed with breast cancer?????!!!!" "Did I REALLY have 3 surgeries???!!!!" "Did I REALLY become a survivor last month??!!" It just seems so bizarre.

I'm heading to bed. I'm on my way to the first 15lbs of weight loss. I'm pretty psyched!

Doris