Yay me!

Saw Dr. Stenslie tonight - awesome session and I feel great about things.

Gotta get to bed.

Will write more soon.

Yucky

Ok so I came down sick on Saturday and I'm starting to get over it now. I'm out of work until Thursday. Sinus infection, double ear infections and a barking cough.

On top of that, Sunday night I missed a step and took a very hard fall at the apartment. My left side is so bruised and I'm in a lot of pain. I feel like I'm 90.

I don't even feel like typing tonight. I can't think straight.

Life is what you make it. I need to make mine better. I wish I knew how to accomplish that.

Update

My friend Cindi pointed out today that I haven't blogged recently. Here I am; blogging :-)

My concern herein: On October 26th I saw Dr. Hammond, my Oncologist at Exeter Hospital. All blood work came back great. He was impressed with my reconstruction and said "Someone might be able to tell you've had surgery, but they will never guess you went through a mastectomy." These words were liberating to me. I had some validation that I in fact do look relatively normal now. This is awesome!

Back to my concern (yes, I know I digress) - I didn't blog about the appointment. I didn't even think to blog about it. Dare I say I've moved on from being convinced that each appointment may bring on another diagnosis of the "C" word to the opposite extreme of falling in to a false sense of security and thinking I am "in the clear" from here on? Lord only knows.

Moving on: Yahoo says we spend 5 years of our lives eating. Based on the severe (yes, 100's if not 1,000's of calories per setting) bingeing I have experienced the past three nights, I would have to add another year or two to my personal total. I do not know where this is coming from. I'm taking this problem day by day and trying to put each day behind me and hope that the next day will include less eating. I will work on this. I will fix it. I have to. There is no way in hell I'm going to re-gain the 20+ pounds which I have lost. Gotta regroup - gotta re-focus. Nothing tastes as good as being thin and healthy feels!

Got my little man back with me tonight. He was with his dad for 5 days and will now be with me for 5. Poor lil' guy has a case of the sniffles.

Ok I'm signing off for the night. As always, thank you for checking in on me.
Doris

Truly blessed.

Today I attended the Somersworth Children's International Festival Craft Festival. Cara and I had a table with Jewels by Park Lane. While the foot traffic was a bit light, I got to see some people I love very very much and I know they love me too.

First I saw Beatrice when I went in for my morning coffee and after that I got to see Aunt Bonnie and Oscar.

Frankly, the love I felt today could keep me warm for years. I am truly blessed to have incredible people in my life who, even if we don't see each other on a regular basis, love me and I love them.

Thank you for the hugs. Thank you for the tears of joy. Thank you for the love and support that even time could not deter.

Doris

R.I.P.

Ann Morrill, a former co-worker of mine passed away yesterday morning. We were notified this morning.

That's it for today.

I'm such a goober!

I corrected my previous post. My NEW email is dorislachance@gmail.com

Yes, another post....

....anxiety is back.
I have chewed my nails to the beds.
I am learning about "Dopamine Deficiency" - it is very interesting. I am going to talk to my doctor about it and schedule the blood test. Who knows.
I am definitely out of sorts. And ya know what? I am SO sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
Ok - I'm heading to bed.
I do need to figure out how to change my email address for people to comment on my blog. I'll let you know as soon as it is done.
Doris