OMG

I used the same title on January 3rd, 2009.......

Nothing changes on New Year's Day...

Here I am...day 2 of a severe migraine. Thought I finally had the ultimate meds to straighten out the issue. Guess not.

I am experiencing severe depression and a genuine disgust toward my weight and physical appearance.

Had a check up with Dr. Hammond a few weeks ago and although there was a a bit of scare, the tests and x-rays were all normal.

So....my insurance is Anthem. If you've seen the news, Exeter Hospital and Anthem are in the midst of a possible separation. I don't know what's going to happen. I can't imagine going to a whole new hospital and having to work with a whole new group of specialists, doctors, and nurses. We'll see.

(heavy sigh)

I need to work on the BED (Binge eating disorder) and get this weight off. I'm so miserable. Even going up a flight of stairs leaves me breathless.

Feels good to vent a little.

Jake and I have been in our new apartment since mid September. He no longer wants to sleep at his dads house since the move. Many possible triggers, so we're working together to help our son get through this.

My family relationships continue to cause me stress and pain. While others cause me great laughter, support and happiness.

That's about it for now.

Happy New Year.